It's illuminating. Not all in a good way. Ekkehardt keeps himself busy a lot. On the other hand, he also still manages to make time for lighter things, times spent out with friends.
He listens close, watching Ekkehardt's face. More than most things, he needs to learn this.
The truth is, he doesn't know honest he is about those things. He's caused a lot of hurt. And music was tangled up in it. It never feels like enough.
"I... I do. I do want to be those things." He's never felt like enough.
"I think, maybe, that's how I've been distracting myself. It's easier to help someone else. Sometimes I manage." Small steps, and then maybe he can believe like Ekkehardt does.
"You help me a lot," He points out then. "I'm sure you know. I always kind of thought I burdened you like that though." His mouth presses. He has to admit; "I think this is going to take me some time to work through."
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He listens close, watching Ekkehardt's face. More than most things, he needs to learn this.
The truth is, he doesn't know honest he is about those things. He's caused a lot of hurt. And music was tangled up in it. It never feels like enough.
"I... I do. I do want to be those things." He's never felt like enough.
"I think, maybe, that's how I've been distracting myself. It's easier to help someone else. Sometimes I manage." Small steps, and then maybe he can believe like Ekkehardt does.
"You help me a lot," He points out then. "I'm sure you know. I always kind of thought I burdened you like that though." His mouth presses. He has to admit; "I think this is going to take me some time to work through."