FUCKING shit stupid magic school can't make an antiseptic that doesn't sting like all hell, his piece of shit illusion magic not working when he's too busy trying not to scream his head off and the wound opens up to its original deep long weeping cut, all along his arm those faint signs of old wounds that never healed right, that don't go away even after he smacks that antiseptic wipe away and yanks his arm back and clamps his hand down on that cut, because fucking work, Fey magic, why isn't it working the way it's supposed to do, the one time he needs to feel absolutely nothing, not the burning of his arm or the burning behind his eyes that drop his gaze to the mattress and blurs, especially not the burning at the back of his mind that edges on full blown panic in the context of his strongest defense mechanism being broken down in front of him.
Stupid, stupid, stupid. He should have gone to Avery. Avery doesn't ask questions, he doesn't care. ]
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FUCKING shit stupid magic school can't make an antiseptic that doesn't sting like all hell, his piece of shit illusion magic not working when he's too busy trying not to scream his head off and the wound opens up to its original deep long weeping cut, all along his arm those faint signs of old wounds that never healed right, that don't go away even after he smacks that antiseptic wipe away and yanks his arm back and clamps his hand down on that cut, because fucking work, Fey magic, why isn't it working the way it's supposed to do, the one time he needs to feel absolutely nothing, not the burning of his arm or the burning behind his eyes that drop his gaze to the mattress and blurs, especially not the burning at the back of his mind that edges on full blown panic in the context of his strongest defense mechanism being broken down in front of him.
Stupid, stupid, stupid. He should have gone to Avery. Avery doesn't ask questions, he doesn't care. ]