[Yuya's quiet for a moment. It seemed like what his friends wanted was just to forgive him and put it all behind them, but it was hard. His friends should matter more than strangers but he can't put their looks out of mind. Can't put the way he felt, how easily he went into it, the blood...
If what he wants is opposed to what his friends want, which one needs to give? It sounds like... his, because his are what's causing the problem. Nana needs help. Toki doesn't need to have to be uncomfortable in their space because of him. And he can't do those things if he's drowning in himself.
Not keeping it to himself just doesn't align with the apparent damage of letting it out, and he's pretty sure that's the bigger issue. He's so tired of not being strong enough for his friends.
He reaches to pull off the hat and offers it back to Maverick.] Okay.
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If what he wants is opposed to what his friends want, which one needs to give? It sounds like... his, because his are what's causing the problem. Nana needs help. Toki doesn't need to have to be uncomfortable in their space because of him. And he can't do those things if he's drowning in himself.
Not keeping it to himself just doesn't align with the apparent damage of letting it out, and he's pretty sure that's the bigger issue. He's so tired of not being strong enough for his friends.
He reaches to pull off the hat and offers it back to Maverick.] Okay.