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[elliexir]

WHO: Ellie (elliexir) & Multiple
WHERE: Literally everywhere
WHEN: ~over the course of the week
WHAT: This is literally just a catch-all log for a bunch of threads so I don't spam the comm...
WARNINGS: This is a mess

( ooc: feel free to contact me by either PMing this account or PPing northpaws if you would like a thread with ellie! i am more than glad to set anything up c: )

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[suddenlybees]

[ The lack of reaction is worse than anything else she could have done. Yelling, punching, knifing him in the gut, those are all things he could have prepared himself for and worked with, but the lack of anything- the uncertainty, the worry- That's not something he knows how to handle. ]

Outside...?

[ Oof. A flimsy excuse- and it sounds like an excuse, even to his ears. Ah- alright, he'll just fall back to the old MO and run his mouth until she gets mad, and he'll know how to deal with that. ]

I wasn't anywhere in particular!! Just outside! I was just taking a walk, you see? There's so much space outside, you can go quite far without running into traffic or guards or any of the sort!

[elliexir]

[ of course in any other situation, ellie would have gotten mad. just yelled at him until her throat was sore and she got all the steam out of her, but it's different. circumstances have changed. things have happened. she can't just blow up at him and sweep this under the rug. they actually have to deal with this. ]

[ she just stares at him with that same indescribable expression, silently saying nothing for a full second, before she takes a deep breath. ]

... where were you?

[ she repeats again. ]

[suddenlybees]

[ Is it not going to work... It wasn't supposed to be a big deal; he never thought people would be upset at him for doing what he's been doing for years, had expected shouting when they did confront him and hadn't gotten any of that, and this 180 from everything he's grown up learning is sending him reeling a bit, so that he has to duck his head and kick off his shoes and haul himself up onto his bunk so he can give himself some time to think of what to say and how to say it.

Ellie doesn't seem to want to punch him in the gut at the moment, so he pats the mattress next to where he sits, legs dangling over the edge, so she can sit next to him if she wants, and/or push him off the bunk when she finds her anger again. ]

The mountains, mostly. Outside Soleil. You don't have to go very far, but if you make the right turns on the paths, the mountains cover up the town and the school and it's dark, like you're all alone in the world. I can take you sometime, if you want.

[elliexir]

[ she watches him climb onto the bunkbed and she doesn't follow him immediately afterwards. she watches him first and debates amongst herself if she should sit next to him. after a second, she makes her decision and climbs onto the bed as well. she lets her feet dangle and grips onto the sides of the mattress, looking downwards. her breath is shaky and she's trying to find her words. ]

You... You can't just leave like that. You can't just fuck off and not answer your phone.

[ bits of anger float on the tips of her words, but it's contained. she's not blowing up on him like she usually does. something keeps it at bay. ]

I get that you did this before but you can't do this shit anymore. You gotta let me know if you're going to disappear.

[suddenlybees]

[ Two days ago, Ellie didn't even have a phone. But that's a petty retort and he bites it back, knowing just how much she had worried by all the evidence still stored in his missed calls and text history, that he never touched or replied or barely read because... why?

"I didn't disappear" didn't go over well with Imelda, nor Minako, and if he insists again with Ellie, he might not leave with all his teeth intact, so he flops backwards onto the mattress as a sign that he's not going anywhere, at least not tonight. ]

I don't intend on disappearing- not forever. Not on you. If I told you, wouldn't you just be worried anyways?

[elliexir]

That's not the point!

[ she finally snaps, turning her body to face him properly. she's still trying to hold back, but ellie has never been quite good at holding back the flood. ]

I don't care if you disappear for a day or a week. Yeah, no shit that I'm going to worry no matter what but at least I know you didn't just vanish and die on me.

[ this is particularly new. sure, ellie might have thought about death now and then, but it's not something that was on the forefront of her mind nor was it something that she really considered herself with. after all, every teenager thinks that they're invincible, right? why really worry about you or someone else dying at that age? ]

And I don't have to sit here wondering what the fuck to do and whether I have to look for you now or later and if I'm even going to find you in one piece.

[suddenlybees]

[ his shoulders jolt, but it's smothered in the mattress and so hard to tell from him just shifting his weight to turn his head towards Ellie, face blank and neutral in response to the anger that finally comes out.

Their world's changed a lot since they were kids, he's realizing. Danger isn't adults and stray dogs anymore, but demons and hunters and people who want those like Kano dead and maybe that's the scariest thing, people. ]

...I won't just up and die, like from a heart attack or falling off a cliff, that's not what's got you worried. You're scared of me being killed. Why?

[ That's not a worry people have over somebody out taking a walk, unless that fear got planted somewhere else. ]