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daybreakacademy2019-07-06 07:54 pm
yokeye) wrote in daybreakacademy2019-07-06 07:54 pm
◇ july open post ◇
WHO: Toki + open
WHERE: various locations
WHEN: All of July - [forward-dated prompts]
WHAT: hospital things, actual studying, paintings, network post
WARNINGS: potential for RNG visions, mental illness, suicide/self-harm mentions
OPEN PROMPTS:
◇ note: Toki is not on campus at all from July 1st-21st, and will also not respond to text messages or read Network posts during that time.
◇ prompt 1;a: Feel free to find him anywhere and in whatever state you want. Surprises are good, I'll roll with it.
1; Summer "Vacation"
- a; visiting hours - soleil hospital - (8th-21st)
[Horrified by what he'd done at the end of June, and moreso by the fact he couldn't explain why, Toki has decided he needs to make a change. Somehow. His decisions in June were some of the worst he'd ever made, and at the time, he thought them perfectly logical and the right choice. He's realized that what he's been told is true; he doesn't think like other people. It's a problem, and it's dangerous to let this continue. At this point, he still has agency over himself, but for how long if he continues down this path? While most of the students face the Herald in Australia, and return for a trip to the Azores, Toki will be in Soliel.
He's voluntarily committed himself to the psych ward in the hospital. It's a place he doesn't particularly like, but he knows they only want to help. He won't be coming back to the campus in the afternoons like he had before. Intensive therapy in a controlled environment is what he has determined he needs; and it's also a break from the academy, though he's not that far away. Toki won't be accepting visitors until his second week of treatment, mainly because he's afraid of certain people masquerading as innocent students and manipulating him before he even has a chance to be helped. After that fear fades, however, he welcomes any visitors. That in itself, a tentative move toward trust and letting go of some paranoia.
Depending on the time and day, he can be found in different areas of the ward. There's a general visitation room, arguably too-cheerfully colored mental health posters adorning the walls, with foldable card tables and stiff-backed chairs. Down the hallway is an art room, bright and open, with a nice view of Soleil. Toki spends most of his free time in there. Across from the art room is some sort of sensory room; it's frightening really, and when he's there, Toki spends far too much time just staring at the spiral on the wall.
Room 402, one of the nicer ones, is what he's reserved for himself and where he can be found most evenings. It's a large room, with a whiteboard space on the wall he can use to make vision notes. There's no telephone, computer, or television in the room, and his own cell phone is not available to him. It's a calming space, and being alone with his thoughts isn't as awful as he anticipated. It's almost like a private dorm room, he decides, except the windows don't open and the door is locked from the outside. Room 402 is a privilege though, and sometimes he won't be let back in when he's done or said something the staff thinks warrants seclusion - at least there's a window.
- b; studying - hall of pythia - (22nd-31st)
[Toki missed finals; completely forgot about them, and also failed all but one of his classes this term. He was doing quite well in Alchemy and Artifice, but skipping the final undid a lot of that and dragged his overall grade down a bit. He's making up for it all now. Focused and determined, he's in overdrive, trying to offset his spectacular academic failures since he arrived at Daybreak. Though summer classes were cancelled and he essentially managed the best school record of his life with the automatic summer school A's; he feels they're undeserved. He didn't participate in the battle, he did nothing. He won't do nothing any longer, and it begins with acquisition of knowledge.
While in his zone of continuous superspeed studying, time passes glacially, and he doesn't get distracted by quickly moving people. Any conversations going on around him are too slowly spoken for him to understand and he can tune them out. He should have been studying this way all semester. To the average student, he becomes a blur of activity. Books pulled off the shelf, flipped through three or four times in minutes, then replaced.
There's one subject he needs help with; another person to converse with to really learn the nuances. Occasionally, he'll stop his frantic studying pace to appear in front of whoever is the library at the time and address them in English.]
May I speak with you for a moment?
- c; art - theatre lenormand - (27th-28th)
[The last weekend in July, several paintings can be found leaning against the main stage in Theatre Lenormand. There are 17 in all, acrylic on canvas mostly, and if one were to look closely, fingerprints in the paint streaks would be visible. They are of various sizes and subjects; the most prominent one being a 5ft tall painting of colorful jellyfish on a black background. Other subjects range from a galaxy cat homage to Kuroko, a girl who may or may not be Adelaide in front of a wall of eyes, and surreal vision imagery. Attached to the jellyfish painting is a note stating the art is free for the taking.
Originally, Toki was going to set them up around campus, in the common rooms and hallways and the like. Last month, he would have done just that. Now, he stops to think, and will let anyone make their own choices if they even want any of this around them. What the school and the students want on the walls is not up to him. He has taken photos of every vision-related painting, and is keeping them in a portfolio for his own references. A portfolio that will be donated to the Daybreak library upon his death, if it's still standing.
Down the hall, in one of the older and seldom used art studios, Toki has unfinished paintings stacked against the wall. He's currently working on a piece depicting a desolate flat landscape with sparse red trees and giant turquoise slugs.]
2; [Network] - (22nd)
[After spending three weeks in the Soleil hospital, Toki posts to the Network. He hasn't done so since the website fiasco. The message is in Japanese, followed by both French and English translations. There is a noticeable change in his typing style in French, and not an exclamation point in sight.]
Let me preface this by stating it will be my last post to the Network.
If you have something to say to me about anything I've done to you or how my actions have affected you, I invite you to air your grievances in public or private texts, or I can discuss things in person if you want to.
3; Wildcard
Anything, anywhere~! Start something or plot on plurk (gratisfaction) or discord (snaretactics#6762).
◇ inbox threads also always welcomed
WHERE: various locations
WHEN: All of July - [forward-dated prompts]
WHAT: hospital things, actual studying, paintings, network post
WARNINGS: potential for RNG visions, mental illness, suicide/self-harm mentions
OPEN PROMPTS:
◇ note: Toki is not on campus at all from July 1st-21st, and will also not respond to text messages or read Network posts during that time.
◇ prompt 1;a: Feel free to find him anywhere and in whatever state you want. Surprises are good, I'll roll with it.
1; Summer "Vacation"
- a; visiting hours - soleil hospital - (8th-21st)
[Horrified by what he'd done at the end of June, and moreso by the fact he couldn't explain why, Toki has decided he needs to make a change. Somehow. His decisions in June were some of the worst he'd ever made, and at the time, he thought them perfectly logical and the right choice. He's realized that what he's been told is true; he doesn't think like other people. It's a problem, and it's dangerous to let this continue. At this point, he still has agency over himself, but for how long if he continues down this path? While most of the students face the Herald in Australia, and return for a trip to the Azores, Toki will be in Soliel.
He's voluntarily committed himself to the psych ward in the hospital. It's a place he doesn't particularly like, but he knows they only want to help. He won't be coming back to the campus in the afternoons like he had before. Intensive therapy in a controlled environment is what he has determined he needs; and it's also a break from the academy, though he's not that far away. Toki won't be accepting visitors until his second week of treatment, mainly because he's afraid of certain people masquerading as innocent students and manipulating him before he even has a chance to be helped. After that fear fades, however, he welcomes any visitors. That in itself, a tentative move toward trust and letting go of some paranoia.
Depending on the time and day, he can be found in different areas of the ward. There's a general visitation room, arguably too-cheerfully colored mental health posters adorning the walls, with foldable card tables and stiff-backed chairs. Down the hallway is an art room, bright and open, with a nice view of Soleil. Toki spends most of his free time in there. Across from the art room is some sort of sensory room; it's frightening really, and when he's there, Toki spends far too much time just staring at the spiral on the wall.
Room 402, one of the nicer ones, is what he's reserved for himself and where he can be found most evenings. It's a large room, with a whiteboard space on the wall he can use to make vision notes. There's no telephone, computer, or television in the room, and his own cell phone is not available to him. It's a calming space, and being alone with his thoughts isn't as awful as he anticipated. It's almost like a private dorm room, he decides, except the windows don't open and the door is locked from the outside. Room 402 is a privilege though, and sometimes he won't be let back in when he's done or said something the staff thinks warrants seclusion - at least there's a window.
- b; studying - hall of pythia - (22nd-31st)
[Toki missed finals; completely forgot about them, and also failed all but one of his classes this term. He was doing quite well in Alchemy and Artifice, but skipping the final undid a lot of that and dragged his overall grade down a bit. He's making up for it all now. Focused and determined, he's in overdrive, trying to offset his spectacular academic failures since he arrived at Daybreak. Though summer classes were cancelled and he essentially managed the best school record of his life with the automatic summer school A's; he feels they're undeserved. He didn't participate in the battle, he did nothing. He won't do nothing any longer, and it begins with acquisition of knowledge.
While in his zone of continuous superspeed studying, time passes glacially, and he doesn't get distracted by quickly moving people. Any conversations going on around him are too slowly spoken for him to understand and he can tune them out. He should have been studying this way all semester. To the average student, he becomes a blur of activity. Books pulled off the shelf, flipped through three or four times in minutes, then replaced.
There's one subject he needs help with; another person to converse with to really learn the nuances. Occasionally, he'll stop his frantic studying pace to appear in front of whoever is the library at the time and address them in English.]
May I speak with you for a moment?
- c; art - theatre lenormand - (27th-28th)
[The last weekend in July, several paintings can be found leaning against the main stage in Theatre Lenormand. There are 17 in all, acrylic on canvas mostly, and if one were to look closely, fingerprints in the paint streaks would be visible. They are of various sizes and subjects; the most prominent one being a 5ft tall painting of colorful jellyfish on a black background. Other subjects range from a galaxy cat homage to Kuroko, a girl who may or may not be Adelaide in front of a wall of eyes, and surreal vision imagery. Attached to the jellyfish painting is a note stating the art is free for the taking.
Originally, Toki was going to set them up around campus, in the common rooms and hallways and the like. Last month, he would have done just that. Now, he stops to think, and will let anyone make their own choices if they even want any of this around them. What the school and the students want on the walls is not up to him. He has taken photos of every vision-related painting, and is keeping them in a portfolio for his own references. A portfolio that will be donated to the Daybreak library upon his death, if it's still standing.
Down the hall, in one of the older and seldom used art studios, Toki has unfinished paintings stacked against the wall. He's currently working on a piece depicting a desolate flat landscape with sparse red trees and giant turquoise slugs.]
2; [Network] - (22nd)
[After spending three weeks in the Soleil hospital, Toki posts to the Network. He hasn't done so since the website fiasco. The message is in Japanese, followed by both French and English translations. There is a noticeable change in his typing style in French, and not an exclamation point in sight.]
Let me preface this by stating it will be my last post to the Network.
If you have something to say to me about anything I've done to you or how my actions have affected you, I invite you to air your grievances in public or private texts, or I can discuss things in person if you want to.
3; Wildcard
Anything, anywhere~! Start something or plot on plurk (gratisfaction) or discord (snaretactics#6762).
◇ inbox threads also always welcomed
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In the end, 'as normal, but only nice' has been all he could come up with as a maxim for himself, and that's what he's going with. This maxim has no reason to actually withhold any info from Toki.
James nods and continues in a more quiet voice himself. ]
So far I just did a library deep dive. Basically what it boils down to is that the Outlands need sunlight as an energy source, just like we do. The Outland and our world kind of... exist parallel, as different planes. What Nightfall is is an effort from Outland creatures to have the Outlands obscure the sun. In result, the Outlands would explode with power while Earth is left with none. We'd all die... as a side-effect mostly.
And that's the angle I found interesting. A lot of factions from the Oulands don't actually care about mankind one way or another - they want the sun energy and they don't care what happens to us. Plain and simple. There are groups that actively want us dead as well, though. I'm not sure what the majority is, but the point is... it's not unanimous.
This is just... an energy resources conflict.
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Toki idly adds unnecessary details to his painting, for the security cameras. They're just having a casual conversation. No conspiracy theories here.]
It's a parallel universe? [That somehow never crossed his mind.] So... the Outlands basically wants an eclipse? Only it's their parallel plane blocking the sun from us instead of the moon?
Resources conflict. That makes so much more sense than "all these creatures want us dead for no reason". Why are we heading straight to war over this though!? Can't we.. share the sun!? Or like, what specifically do they need from it!? Or do we need from it!? People have made artificial sunlight before and why can't we do it on a larger scale if we can't share the actual sun!? This is what Nightfall is about!? What the fuck!?
[That escalated quickly. But he's very annoyed that they weren't informed of this. Surely there are many more options than war if everyone would just talk to each other.]
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That's.. the next question, certainly. I have no idea if, historically, negotiation has been attempted. And even then... it'd have been long ago, wouldn't it? Before technological advancements were made over here.
Ugh. [ He rubs his forehead, exasperated. ] The more answers we get, the more questions there are. Maybe we should see about approaching teachers from the Outlands. They'd know best, right?
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I think negotiation has been attempted, or they tell you it has, but don't provide proof. I think there's some kind of divide still on whether it's been long enough since the last attempt. Some responses to the website were about witches being burned at the stake. That was hundreds of years ago, before humans had more of a grasp of science and they were afraid of magic. I just... I think humans, we're being seen as a lost cause; we can't be negotiated with, we are the problem. But at the same time, they say they want to protect humans and this world. How does that go together? It doesn't make sense. Asking the professors from the Outlands seems like a good idea, but they left the Outlands for a reason. Why? I mean, can we really know who to trust on any side? Can we actually get any objective information? It may just be me, but I feel like everyone in a position of authority at the academy is manipulating the facts.
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But then there is all this information that isn't properly distributed. There is the image of the dead and undead UN soldiers burned into his mind, that nobody has tried to save. There is Keith's assault being swept under the rug.
Can he trust the faculty? The answer should be yes, but it seems way less obvious now. ]
.... no, you're right. I want to believe not all of them are lying to us, but 'want to believe' isn't enough in life and death.
I can maybe disguise questions as part of my studying efforts, in part. I've always been curious and engaged in class. Too bad it's summer break. [ He sighs. ] I hate the thought of deceiving teachers, but it can't be helped.
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[He sees a lot of the staff as hypocritical, biased, and condescending. They never listen to him, but James is different. James is a good student, someone who has known about the supernatural, someone who they may not be suspicious of right away.]
That's a good idea, to maybe get some information out of them with innocent questions.
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[ The others had the sense to not be as loud about it, but that's definitely better left unsaid. ]
Did you hear about how they covered up the Herald battle?
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[He has suspicions of Keith being involved, because of his messages about the website, possibly Hector. Maybe Yuya. He looks at the floor when James mentions the battle.]
I saw it, in a vision. I don't understand why it happened that way.
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[ James sounds solely bitter about this. He sees the logic behind it, but he doesn't agree with it. He doesn't even want to see it. ]
Poisoning out planet and covering up the cause of death for so many people... That can't be ethical. Even if there is a point to secrecy, they shouldn't have gone that far.
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How many times has this been done before? How many tests were covering up things like this?
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I don't want to know. [ .... ] Which means I do want to know, but reluctantly.
At least this was apparently the first Herald, but we don't know what else might have happened. The UN are apparently in on it and seem to have been for a while...
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[He spares a glance at the nearest security camera, and really hopes they don't have great audio. They might be broadcasting all of this to Daybreak, really. Soleil is an extension of them.]
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I think 'pawn' is too small a term. Pawns are those unfortunate UN soldiers who passed away. If we think about this in terms of chess, we're the other pieces. Knights, towers, and so on. More valuable.
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[He has never played chess.]
a tag in which i realize i did not know the english term for rook oops
[ BUT THAT'S BESIDES THE POINT. ]
I'm more of a bishop than a knight, I think. knight's... the horse thing. And you're... can't decide between knight or rook.
[ Or maybe a king, if this was a generalized chess metaphor and not one to apply to their situation. ]
Either way, point is, we've got a bit of wiggle room.
tower makes more sense anyway
[He knows pawn means some kind of manipulated cannon fodder, but he didn't know where the term came from.]
Wiggle room for what? I'm sorry, I forgot what we were talking about~!
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In chess, a rook is the tower-like piece for some reason. I have no idea why they named it that. And the horse... I guess we're just supposed to imagine the knight on it?
Bishop is the piece that can move diagonally. Rook moves forward. The knight kind of jumps two forward and one to the side.
And... honestly, now I'm also losing where I was going with this. [ He laughs. CHESS IS WEIRD, ACTUALLY. ]
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Uhhh....
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Yeah. That's chess for you.
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It's really complicated~! Uh, and thank you, for visiting, by the way!
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[ Now that all the terror is over for the time being. ]
How is it going here? Do they treat you well?
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[He's certainly not going to elaborate on everything; though there may have been rumours about the pool.]
I wasn't in a good place when I got here, but it's going well now. It's hard sometimes, talking to all the therapists and doctors about like my entire life... I'm glad I came though. I think it was the right decision.
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I'm happy to hear that. Hopefully the Herald being done with also takes some stress off you. The last month wasn't easy for anyone, I can't imagine what it'd be like with visions.
[ Now having seen and experienced the Herald, James has a whole lot of newfound sympathy for seeing that thing in your premonitions all the time. ]
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I dreamed about it too. Every night. It affected... a lot of things.
[The escalation of visions about the Herald, even before he knew what it was, resulted in a lot of emotional and physical trauma. What little peace he has now will ultimately be short lived. Because Xelvak was only the first.]
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[ Because battle trauma is a bitch, actually. James does not recommend it. He's sure he'll get better over the summer, but sleeping is often hard right now, if he's not deadly tired. ]
But what counts is that we made it. Ana's safe as well. Thanks for giving us the warning on the danger that she'd be in, by the way.
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