◇ july open post ◇

[yokeye]

WHO: Toki + open
WHERE: various locations
WHEN: All of July - [forward-dated prompts]
WHAT: hospital things, actual studying, paintings, network post
WARNINGS: potential for RNG visions, mental illness, suicide/self-harm mentions


OPEN PROMPTS:
◇ note: Toki is not on campus at all from July 1st-21st, and will also not respond to text messages or read Network posts during that time.
◇ prompt 1;a: Feel free to find him anywhere and in whatever state you want. Surprises are good, I'll roll with it.


1; Summer "Vacation"

- a; visiting hours - soleil hospital - (8th-21st)

[Horrified by what he'd done at the end of June, and moreso by the fact he couldn't explain why, Toki has decided he needs to make a change. Somehow. His decisions in June were some of the worst he'd ever made, and at the time, he thought them perfectly logical and the right choice. He's realized that what he's been told is true; he doesn't think like other people. It's a problem, and it's dangerous to let this continue. At this point, he still has agency over himself, but for how long if he continues down this path? While most of the students face the Herald in Australia, and return for a trip to the Azores, Toki will be in Soliel.

He's voluntarily committed himself to the psych ward in the hospital. It's a place he doesn't particularly like, but he knows they only want to help. He won't be coming back to the campus in the afternoons like he had before. Intensive therapy in a controlled environment is what he has determined he needs; and it's also a break from the academy, though he's not that far away. Toki won't be accepting visitors until his second week of treatment, mainly because he's afraid of certain people masquerading as innocent students and manipulating him before he even has a chance to be helped. After that fear fades, however, he welcomes any visitors. That in itself, a tentative move toward trust and letting go of some paranoia.

Depending on the time and day, he can be found in different areas of the ward. There's a general visitation room, arguably too-cheerfully colored mental health posters adorning the walls, with foldable card tables and stiff-backed chairs. Down the hallway is an art room, bright and open, with a nice view of Soleil. Toki spends most of his free time in there. Across from the art room is some sort of sensory room; it's frightening really, and when he's there, Toki spends far too much time just staring at the spiral on the wall.

Room 402, one of the nicer ones, is what he's reserved for himself and where he can be found most evenings. It's a large room, with a whiteboard space on the wall he can use to make vision notes. There's no telephone, computer, or television in the room, and his own cell phone is not available to him. It's a calming space, and being alone with his thoughts isn't as awful as he anticipated. It's almost like a private dorm room, he decides, except the windows don't open and the door is locked from the outside. Room 402 is a privilege though, and sometimes he won't be let back in when he's done or said something the staff thinks warrants seclusion - at least there's a window.


- b; studying - hall of pythia - (22nd-31st)

[Toki missed finals; completely forgot about them, and also failed all but one of his classes this term. He was doing quite well in Alchemy and Artifice, but skipping the final undid a lot of that and dragged his overall grade down a bit. He's making up for it all now. Focused and determined, he's in overdrive, trying to offset his spectacular academic failures since he arrived at Daybreak. Though summer classes were cancelled and he essentially managed the best school record of his life with the automatic summer school A's; he feels they're undeserved. He didn't participate in the battle, he did nothing. He won't do nothing any longer, and it begins with acquisition of knowledge.

While in his zone of continuous superspeed studying, time passes glacially, and he doesn't get distracted by quickly moving people. Any conversations going on around him are too slowly spoken for him to understand and he can tune them out. He should have been studying this way all semester. To the average student, he becomes a blur of activity. Books pulled off the shelf, flipped through three or four times in minutes, then replaced.

There's one subject he needs help with; another person to converse with to really learn the nuances. Occasionally, he'll stop his frantic studying pace to appear in front of whoever is the library at the time and address them in English.]

May I speak with you for a moment?


- c; art - theatre lenormand - (27th-28th)

[The last weekend in July, several paintings can be found leaning against the main stage in Theatre Lenormand. There are 17 in all, acrylic on canvas mostly, and if one were to look closely, fingerprints in the paint streaks would be visible. They are of various sizes and subjects; the most prominent one being a 5ft tall painting of colorful jellyfish on a black background. Other subjects range from a galaxy cat homage to Kuroko, a girl who may or may not be Adelaide in front of a wall of eyes, and surreal vision imagery. Attached to the jellyfish painting is a note stating the art is free for the taking.

Originally, Toki was going to set them up around campus, in the common rooms and hallways and the like. Last month, he would have done just that. Now, he stops to think, and will let anyone make their own choices if they even want any of this around them. What the school and the students want on the walls is not up to him. He has taken photos of every vision-related painting, and is keeping them in a portfolio for his own references. A portfolio that will be donated to the Daybreak library upon his death, if it's still standing.

Down the hall, in one of the older and seldom used art studios, Toki has unfinished paintings stacked against the wall. He's currently working on a piece depicting a desolate flat landscape with sparse red trees and giant turquoise slugs.]


2; [Network] - (22nd)

[After spending three weeks in the Soleil hospital, Toki posts to the Network. He hasn't done so since the website fiasco. The message is in Japanese, followed by both French and English translations. There is a noticeable change in his typing style in French, and not an exclamation point in sight.]

Let me preface this by stating it will be my last post to the Network.

If you have something to say to me about anything I've done to you or how my actions have affected you, I invite you to air your grievances in public or private texts, or I can discuss things in person if you want to.


3; Wildcard
Anything, anywhere~! Start something or plot on plurk (gratisfaction) or discord (snaretactics#6762).

◇ inbox threads also always welcomed

Comments

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[suddenlybees]

TOKI WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DYING??????????????????????

[ don't say "last post" what the actual fuck, Toki ]

[yokeye]

No.

[suddenlybees]

GOOD!!!
NOW GIVE ME SOMETHING MORE THAN "NO"!!!!!

1a

[electricities]

[ asami had just gotten to daybreak and learned of the students on her floor. toki was among one of them, though she noticed he hadn't been present in his dorm lately. asami learned from other faculty that toki was being hospitalized, and some part of her felt like she needed him to know that there would be someone there to listen to him once he was ready to return.

one of the staff in the facility leads asami to room 402. it's nice and light when she peeks inside, but she doesn't want to startle him, so she gives his door a gentle knock. ]

Hello, Toki? [ once he's had her attention, she gives him a gentle smile. ] We haven't met yet, but my name's Asami Sato. I'll be your RA whenever you're ready to return to Daybreak, and I wanted to see how you were doing.

[yokeye]

[Toki smiles back at her, but there's suspicion in his eyes.]

Do you have identification?

[Who is she really? It's weird for someone he's never met to show up here.]

[electricities]

Yes, I do.

[ she holds up her daybreak ID. it lists her status as a graduate student and teacher's aide. ]

Does this work?

2; un: anarose

[highelves]

Toki! Hello! This is Anastasia.
I tried to reach you a while ago, but I'm really glad to hear from you again!

Would you prefer text messages or a discussion in-person?

[yokeye]

I wasn't using my phone, I'm sorry.
Either is fine. It's your comfort that matters here.

[highelves]

It's not a problem. I'll send you a private message.

1a - art room - June 9th

[onebetter]

[ There's been a lot going on with what, the Herald, Jolyne's attack on Keith, meeting new people, recovering from his injury. James has gotten around to looking for Toki shamefully late and hearing the news of him in the hospital...? Well, it certainly hasn't made James feel any better about that.

But now here's here, in the early afternoon, and a nurse has directed him to the art room. Though the door is open, he knocks on the doorframe to announce his presence. ]

Toki?

[yokeye]

[Toki looks up from his painting to the doorway.]

James! Hello~! what do you think of this!?

[He waves James over to see his work. It's mostly a swirling mass of bright colors, some skeletal hands emerging from random places, done in black. He's finger-painting and adding some red blood dripping from the hands.]

2, un: weaseling

[deuteranope]

hey

how you feeling?

[yokeye]

That's irrelevant to this topic. Do you have something to say, or not?

A, art room

[strings_theory]

[How she'd heard about him being here is anyone's guess, but with... well, everything that happened in her all of three days back home? She had at least gotten some things figured out, or taken care of, really. Which has been making her mind work overtime with other thoughts and she's still not in the best of conditions, even if the bandages are finally gone and she's left with old burns marks on her hands and lower arms that will eventually fade away in due time.

Stone Free has been relegated to hiding and she'd promised herself she wouldn't let anything happen.

Which is why she's sighing softly and just stopping in the doorway and ignoring the escort leaving.]

Hey, Toki? [She sounds tired.]

[yokeye]

[There's something different about her voice, a weariness.]

Jolyne~!

[After their last talk the night of the prom, Toki's first thoughts are to show her she's wanted and appreciated. He's immediately walking over to her, abandoning his canvas. He wants to hug her or hold her hand, but he won't. The security cameras might see it in the wrong light.]

How are-

[The hand he almost grabbed; scarring of some sort. She was hurt somehow.]

Are you okay!? What happened!?

1a, visitation room

[nor_iron_bars]

[Jail lounges casually in the stiff plastic visitor's chair, somehow managing to achieve her typical level of "relaxed and mildly shady" despite the surroundings. She gives Toki a leisurely wave.]

Hey, kid. Thought I'd drop by.

[There's a small package on the table, which explains why she adds:]

Brought you something.

[yokeye]

[Toki returns the wave; he was not expecting to see Jail. She doesn't seem like the visiting type. He sits down across from her and eyes the package.]

Why? I mean, not that it's- uhh. Thank you?

[For visiting? For whatever the gift is? He's not sure.]

A ~13th or so

[hippocarnival]

[Once Yuya's back and Toki's finally accepting visitors, he makes his way to the hospital. Up the stairs once he checks in with the reception, and then there's a knock on Toki's door.]

Toki...? It's Yuya.

[yokeye]

Yuya~!

[Toki is quick to open the door, even though he doesn't know what to say after he does.]

Uh, come... in.

2; un: black (private)

[marmoron]

[There's quite a bit that Keith has to say, but the matter is complicated and it's hard to figure out a good place to start.]

are you quitting the network forever now?

[yokeye]

Yes. I don't trust myself with it. After responses to this, I will no longer be using it.

1a; the 12th

[transfusionem]

[Adelaide has...Had a time. It's been almost a week, and she feels so disgusted with herself that it's been hard to make herself get up and do things. She's been...hiding.

It turns out hiding is pretty easy when you can just turn yourself into a cat and wander the city. She's sure nobody misses her - how could they, after what she did? Even if it was because of someone else, she's still at fault.

Whatever. That's not important. What's important is Toki. He's at the hospital, and she's sure she needs company.

She finds him in his room - knocking on the door before hovering outside of it awkwardly.]

Toki?

[yokeye]

[He's rushing to open the door as soon as he hears Adelaide's voice.]

Adelaide~! Come in!

[Any outwards signs of awkwardness on her part are attributed to just being in this environment. Hospitals aren't well liked by a lot of people.]

[partiallysquirrelblood]

I don't really have any grievances? Holding grudges isn't exactly my thing.

I do think you could've maybe handled things better, but that's not entirely your fault.

[yokeye]

Thank you, Doreen, but if you have no grievances, why are you commenting?