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daybreakacademy2019-07-06 07:54 pm
yokeye) wrote in daybreakacademy2019-07-06 07:54 pm
◇ july open post ◇
WHO: Toki + open
WHERE: various locations
WHEN: All of July - [forward-dated prompts]
WHAT: hospital things, actual studying, paintings, network post
WARNINGS: potential for RNG visions, mental illness, suicide/self-harm mentions
OPEN PROMPTS:
◇ note: Toki is not on campus at all from July 1st-21st, and will also not respond to text messages or read Network posts during that time.
◇ prompt 1;a: Feel free to find him anywhere and in whatever state you want. Surprises are good, I'll roll with it.
1; Summer "Vacation"
- a; visiting hours - soleil hospital - (8th-21st)
[Horrified by what he'd done at the end of June, and moreso by the fact he couldn't explain why, Toki has decided he needs to make a change. Somehow. His decisions in June were some of the worst he'd ever made, and at the time, he thought them perfectly logical and the right choice. He's realized that what he's been told is true; he doesn't think like other people. It's a problem, and it's dangerous to let this continue. At this point, he still has agency over himself, but for how long if he continues down this path? While most of the students face the Herald in Australia, and return for a trip to the Azores, Toki will be in Soliel.
He's voluntarily committed himself to the psych ward in the hospital. It's a place he doesn't particularly like, but he knows they only want to help. He won't be coming back to the campus in the afternoons like he had before. Intensive therapy in a controlled environment is what he has determined he needs; and it's also a break from the academy, though he's not that far away. Toki won't be accepting visitors until his second week of treatment, mainly because he's afraid of certain people masquerading as innocent students and manipulating him before he even has a chance to be helped. After that fear fades, however, he welcomes any visitors. That in itself, a tentative move toward trust and letting go of some paranoia.
Depending on the time and day, he can be found in different areas of the ward. There's a general visitation room, arguably too-cheerfully colored mental health posters adorning the walls, with foldable card tables and stiff-backed chairs. Down the hallway is an art room, bright and open, with a nice view of Soleil. Toki spends most of his free time in there. Across from the art room is some sort of sensory room; it's frightening really, and when he's there, Toki spends far too much time just staring at the spiral on the wall.
Room 402, one of the nicer ones, is what he's reserved for himself and where he can be found most evenings. It's a large room, with a whiteboard space on the wall he can use to make vision notes. There's no telephone, computer, or television in the room, and his own cell phone is not available to him. It's a calming space, and being alone with his thoughts isn't as awful as he anticipated. It's almost like a private dorm room, he decides, except the windows don't open and the door is locked from the outside. Room 402 is a privilege though, and sometimes he won't be let back in when he's done or said something the staff thinks warrants seclusion - at least there's a window.
- b; studying - hall of pythia - (22nd-31st)
[Toki missed finals; completely forgot about them, and also failed all but one of his classes this term. He was doing quite well in Alchemy and Artifice, but skipping the final undid a lot of that and dragged his overall grade down a bit. He's making up for it all now. Focused and determined, he's in overdrive, trying to offset his spectacular academic failures since he arrived at Daybreak. Though summer classes were cancelled and he essentially managed the best school record of his life with the automatic summer school A's; he feels they're undeserved. He didn't participate in the battle, he did nothing. He won't do nothing any longer, and it begins with acquisition of knowledge.
While in his zone of continuous superspeed studying, time passes glacially, and he doesn't get distracted by quickly moving people. Any conversations going on around him are too slowly spoken for him to understand and he can tune them out. He should have been studying this way all semester. To the average student, he becomes a blur of activity. Books pulled off the shelf, flipped through three or four times in minutes, then replaced.
There's one subject he needs help with; another person to converse with to really learn the nuances. Occasionally, he'll stop his frantic studying pace to appear in front of whoever is the library at the time and address them in English.]
May I speak with you for a moment?
- c; art - theatre lenormand - (27th-28th)
[The last weekend in July, several paintings can be found leaning against the main stage in Theatre Lenormand. There are 17 in all, acrylic on canvas mostly, and if one were to look closely, fingerprints in the paint streaks would be visible. They are of various sizes and subjects; the most prominent one being a 5ft tall painting of colorful jellyfish on a black background. Other subjects range from a galaxy cat homage to Kuroko, a girl who may or may not be Adelaide in front of a wall of eyes, and surreal vision imagery. Attached to the jellyfish painting is a note stating the art is free for the taking.
Originally, Toki was going to set them up around campus, in the common rooms and hallways and the like. Last month, he would have done just that. Now, he stops to think, and will let anyone make their own choices if they even want any of this around them. What the school and the students want on the walls is not up to him. He has taken photos of every vision-related painting, and is keeping them in a portfolio for his own references. A portfolio that will be donated to the Daybreak library upon his death, if it's still standing.
Down the hall, in one of the older and seldom used art studios, Toki has unfinished paintings stacked against the wall. He's currently working on a piece depicting a desolate flat landscape with sparse red trees and giant turquoise slugs.]
2; [Network] - (22nd)
[After spending three weeks in the Soleil hospital, Toki posts to the Network. He hasn't done so since the website fiasco. The message is in Japanese, followed by both French and English translations. There is a noticeable change in his typing style in French, and not an exclamation point in sight.]
Let me preface this by stating it will be my last post to the Network.
If you have something to say to me about anything I've done to you or how my actions have affected you, I invite you to air your grievances in public or private texts, or I can discuss things in person if you want to.
3; Wildcard
Anything, anywhere~! Start something or plot on plurk (gratisfaction) or discord (snaretactics#6762).
◇ inbox threads also always welcomed
WHERE: various locations
WHEN: All of July - [forward-dated prompts]
WHAT: hospital things, actual studying, paintings, network post
WARNINGS: potential for RNG visions, mental illness, suicide/self-harm mentions
OPEN PROMPTS:
◇ note: Toki is not on campus at all from July 1st-21st, and will also not respond to text messages or read Network posts during that time.
◇ prompt 1;a: Feel free to find him anywhere and in whatever state you want. Surprises are good, I'll roll with it.
1; Summer "Vacation"
- a; visiting hours - soleil hospital - (8th-21st)
[Horrified by what he'd done at the end of June, and moreso by the fact he couldn't explain why, Toki has decided he needs to make a change. Somehow. His decisions in June were some of the worst he'd ever made, and at the time, he thought them perfectly logical and the right choice. He's realized that what he's been told is true; he doesn't think like other people. It's a problem, and it's dangerous to let this continue. At this point, he still has agency over himself, but for how long if he continues down this path? While most of the students face the Herald in Australia, and return for a trip to the Azores, Toki will be in Soliel.
He's voluntarily committed himself to the psych ward in the hospital. It's a place he doesn't particularly like, but he knows they only want to help. He won't be coming back to the campus in the afternoons like he had before. Intensive therapy in a controlled environment is what he has determined he needs; and it's also a break from the academy, though he's not that far away. Toki won't be accepting visitors until his second week of treatment, mainly because he's afraid of certain people masquerading as innocent students and manipulating him before he even has a chance to be helped. After that fear fades, however, he welcomes any visitors. That in itself, a tentative move toward trust and letting go of some paranoia.
Depending on the time and day, he can be found in different areas of the ward. There's a general visitation room, arguably too-cheerfully colored mental health posters adorning the walls, with foldable card tables and stiff-backed chairs. Down the hallway is an art room, bright and open, with a nice view of Soleil. Toki spends most of his free time in there. Across from the art room is some sort of sensory room; it's frightening really, and when he's there, Toki spends far too much time just staring at the spiral on the wall.
Room 402, one of the nicer ones, is what he's reserved for himself and where he can be found most evenings. It's a large room, with a whiteboard space on the wall he can use to make vision notes. There's no telephone, computer, or television in the room, and his own cell phone is not available to him. It's a calming space, and being alone with his thoughts isn't as awful as he anticipated. It's almost like a private dorm room, he decides, except the windows don't open and the door is locked from the outside. Room 402 is a privilege though, and sometimes he won't be let back in when he's done or said something the staff thinks warrants seclusion - at least there's a window.
- b; studying - hall of pythia - (22nd-31st)
[Toki missed finals; completely forgot about them, and also failed all but one of his classes this term. He was doing quite well in Alchemy and Artifice, but skipping the final undid a lot of that and dragged his overall grade down a bit. He's making up for it all now. Focused and determined, he's in overdrive, trying to offset his spectacular academic failures since he arrived at Daybreak. Though summer classes were cancelled and he essentially managed the best school record of his life with the automatic summer school A's; he feels they're undeserved. He didn't participate in the battle, he did nothing. He won't do nothing any longer, and it begins with acquisition of knowledge.
While in his zone of continuous superspeed studying, time passes glacially, and he doesn't get distracted by quickly moving people. Any conversations going on around him are too slowly spoken for him to understand and he can tune them out. He should have been studying this way all semester. To the average student, he becomes a blur of activity. Books pulled off the shelf, flipped through three or four times in minutes, then replaced.
There's one subject he needs help with; another person to converse with to really learn the nuances. Occasionally, he'll stop his frantic studying pace to appear in front of whoever is the library at the time and address them in English.]
May I speak with you for a moment?
- c; art - theatre lenormand - (27th-28th)
[The last weekend in July, several paintings can be found leaning against the main stage in Theatre Lenormand. There are 17 in all, acrylic on canvas mostly, and if one were to look closely, fingerprints in the paint streaks would be visible. They are of various sizes and subjects; the most prominent one being a 5ft tall painting of colorful jellyfish on a black background. Other subjects range from a galaxy cat homage to Kuroko, a girl who may or may not be Adelaide in front of a wall of eyes, and surreal vision imagery. Attached to the jellyfish painting is a note stating the art is free for the taking.
Originally, Toki was going to set them up around campus, in the common rooms and hallways and the like. Last month, he would have done just that. Now, he stops to think, and will let anyone make their own choices if they even want any of this around them. What the school and the students want on the walls is not up to him. He has taken photos of every vision-related painting, and is keeping them in a portfolio for his own references. A portfolio that will be donated to the Daybreak library upon his death, if it's still standing.
Down the hall, in one of the older and seldom used art studios, Toki has unfinished paintings stacked against the wall. He's currently working on a piece depicting a desolate flat landscape with sparse red trees and giant turquoise slugs.]
2; [Network] - (22nd)
[After spending three weeks in the Soleil hospital, Toki posts to the Network. He hasn't done so since the website fiasco. The message is in Japanese, followed by both French and English translations. There is a noticeable change in his typing style in French, and not an exclamation point in sight.]
Let me preface this by stating it will be my last post to the Network.
If you have something to say to me about anything I've done to you or how my actions have affected you, I invite you to air your grievances in public or private texts, or I can discuss things in person if you want to.
3; Wildcard
Anything, anywhere~! Start something or plot on plurk (gratisfaction) or discord (snaretactics#6762).
◇ inbox threads also always welcomed
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hey remember when we talked about ceramic being stronger, but you said how when you dropped ceramic mugs they shattered? how that happens because its strong by being hard, but that means it can't bend enough to stop itself from breaking?
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you're strong because you bend without breaking. you adapt however you need to so that you can fill in old cracks people made by changing shape.
he ain't like that. he's more like ceramic and he's already put up with a lot without breaking. yeah he's putting up a tough wall but if you bounce back at him too hard, it might push him over the edge of a fucking counter, and he can't adapt the same way you can. he's gotta get glued back together and sometimes little pieces and shit still chip off.
if you want to help and keep this kickass pretty mug you have, you have to be careful. okay? gentle but supportive
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？？？
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when you do, it makes him think you don't give a fuck about him
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he doesn't fucking understand why you do the shit you do and it freaks him out
he can't bend so he can't figure out how to play with you especially when you change the rules all the time
I know you can bend
you're really fucking good at it
bending to help him won't break you, no matter how long it takes
and if it's a long time before he plays with you again, I'll still be here to play with you. Fireball too.
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٩(´Д` ;)۶:.*
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he says he'll talk to you when you get back, but it has to be in person and on his terms
so look forward to that, get your shit together, etc. etc.
aaaand I got you some presents so even if that's exhausting you still get something nice to return to
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( ﾟ∀(・－・)
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he'll do his best...]
he needs to say his own piece to you if shit's gonna get better, if you want to understand what happened then you gotta ask him yourself when he's ready to answer
I'll be there to make sure neither of you fucking explodes or whatever - that's something he wants
like a translator for each of your stupid shit
if it works then we can all play together
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think of all the hoops as proving to him that you care enough to go through them
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if you decide Toki's friendship is too much effort and you're just gonna sulk instead then go eat some fucking poutine
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[ He is absolutely shoving poutine into his mouth, that's why Mav's not getting words ]
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go look up simone giertz 👑💩🤖
queen of shitty robots seems like your thing
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