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[unlogic]

Who: Desidera and anyone
What: her roommate/best friend/??? almost died and their adopted vocaloid got kidnapped, so uh. yeah.
When: starting December 9th and probably going until Gunvolt's recovery
Where: mostly at the infirmary, but classrooms/Aube 2nd floor/library/cafeteria is doable too
Warnings: stuff that can reasonably be expected given what happened. will edit for specifics if necessary later.

Desidera's normal routine went more or less out the window upon her return to the academy after the mission. She still went to her classes and occasionally checked in with Valvatorez like normal, but most of the other activities she usually did were being almost completely disregarded; she stopped making her usual visits to the Mithril Cage (both not feeling up to it, and afraid of what might happen while she felt so horrible), went to the library less often (only to look into things related to her classes and nothing more), and didn't remain in the cafeteria for long (leaving the minute she was done eating instead of lingering around or getting more).

This was all so she could prioritize spending whatever free time she could find in the infirmary, refusing to spend any more time away from Gunvolt than she absolutely had to. She wasn't leaving unless they made her leave, or unless it was late enough that she needed to return to her room to try (and probably fail) to sleep.

Noticeably, she also made a point of wearing her uniform all the time now as opposed to changing into any of her normal outfits—what she normally wore tended toward darker colors, but blue and white were his colors—and the bracelet she had been given before any of this happened hasn't been removed since she first put it on.

Comments

[unlogic]

It...never really wasn't mine, was it?

[Looking at it as something she was born with, it's technically always been hers.

It's still the result of a contract, but she never did actually learn if the power itself was what had changed her, or if she herself had been changed and the power was just something that occurred naturally because of it. More-recently, she's been suspecting the latter.

Maybe she should try to find out for sure, someday.]

[arcadianvampire]

To a fashion, yes. But even those born with power sometimes still do not make it their own, instead becoming owned by it.

[There's countless cases of this throughout history; those who become drunk on their own power, those who use it irresponsibly, or those who simply never bother to master it by taking shortcuts. And much more than that, obviously.]

You made a decision to stop running from it... and embraced it for what it is.

[An extension of self.]

[unlogic]

I wouldn't have been able to if I didn't have help. [From Valvatorez himself, for starters, but also from the friends she's made in her time here so far, although some did have more of an impact than others. Even the other teachers and students generally treating her like she was normal helped to reinforce the idea that there wasn't anything really wrong with her.

It would have been so much harder to begin accepting herself if the people around her weren't willing to do so themselves.


The opinions of people outside of the academy, however, might be a different story.]