Everything is fine~! (open)

[yokeye]

WHO: Tokidoki Rikugou, you
WHAT: He's getting help - awkward discussions, go! / Also functions as general open post
WHEN: Mid-February-ish
WHERE: Various? The therapists' office? Who knows?
NOTES: Likely descriptions of death and dismemberment. Assorted other unsavory things.

Therapy - [Semi-Open] -

Toki admitted to himself he needed to see someone after having a panic attack in front of Ekkehardt over Orihime's phone call, and fainting in Ky's class a couple of days later. Then Rex happened on the Outlands field trip and he came back a little broken, but more determined to get it together.

So, anyone who has witnessed panic attacks, disturbing behavior, whatever else he's done that's concerning* since the Tea Party- now's the time to discuss it. An hour with whoever about whatever. Lycans must be accompanied by someone, otherwise it's optional whether a third person is needed to facilitate things. Group threads if you desire. Assumption is he's been seeing counselors/psychiatrists/whatever the school has since the 5th (and taking sedatives). He isn't as immediately panicked beyond control at the littlest thing anymore (and better off for later dates in the month).

* dissociative 'what is reality' things and some nihilistic viewpoints are unrelated to werewolf trauma


Freespace - [Open] -

Anything else with anyone else. During all of February. Plot on Plurk/Discord if you want, or just start something and surprise me.

Comments

[yokeye]

He still thinks Yuya would be better off with a new roommate. No one should have to deal with him right now, or maybe ever

"Okay."

Toki releases him and finds a spot to sit on the floor again, leaning his back against the wall. It's too much effort to stand and keep talking about things at the same time. He wipes his eye with his sleeve until everything's not completely blurry. He's really tired of crying so much.

"Yuya, do you... do you think that maybe it was like, not an accident, but the, the werewolf... did it know, did they plan it? I mean, they would be human most of the time right? I don't know much about that besides movies and things. But what if they just lost control and they killed people? I keep thinking about it. How horrible that would be. I know what it's like to have no control and if it's like that and they didn't mean to... But I'm still like... angry about it and I shouldn't be thinking like that, right? It killed her!"

That may be the worst part, that he can't condemn the lycanthrope for it, no matter how frightened he is of all of them.

[hippocarnival]

Yuya slowly sits down across from Toki, more space between the now. He listens patiently while Toki tries to work it out--this is already way further than they got before, so the therapy must be doing something.

"... I don't know. If they planned it, or if it was just--where they were when they turned." He shrugs, helpless. "They really do... it's something from the way the blight affects them, that makes them violent and it's hard for them to control. Knowing how things are isn't wrong, it just means you understand what it really is."

He folds his hands in his lap, chewing on his lip. "But those people still hurt you, and your sister, whether they meant it or not."

[yokeye]

Toki nods while listening to Yuya's explanation. It's like he's thought about, mostly. They can't help what they are, but he'll never know whether this particular incident had malicious intent or not. He prefers to the think the latter because it would be something he couldn't keep thinking back on. But he also wants it to be the former so he has something to channel the anger to.

"I don't want to forget it, but I want to... move on. I want it to stop hurting."

He barely knows what's he's talking about anymore. There's too many thoughts.

"I'm tired."

[hippocarnival]

"It will. You'll get there." Yuya offers him a faint smile. "Promise."

He glances to his arm, considering the time for a moment. "... You want to go get ice cream from the cafeteria? I always feel a little better after eating something like that."

[yokeye]

Maybe he will. It doesn't seem that hopeless anymore, and he returns Yuya's smile. Ice cream doesn't sound good at all, though, and it would probably make him sick. He almost says yes immediately, like he always does; that's something he needs to work on too.

"Uh, no. Thanks. But you go~!"

[hippocarnival]

"Do you want me to bring you something else, then?" Yuya pushes himself to his feet, though he's not in a rush to turn out before Toki speaks up. And he's sure ice cream can make it from the cafeteria to his dorm room.

[yokeye]

"No, I'm fine~!"

He'll just play with Kuroko if she ever comes back out.

[hippocarnival]

"Okay. I'll be back soon." Yuya turns to the door, but he pauses when he has his hand on the knob and turns back.

"You know, you can't see it yet but I think it's already helping."